Complete disclosure here….I had anticipated writing something completely different for this post, but right before I sat down to write this post, I watched this video. You may have seen it on the blog’s Facebook page, but I couldn’t get the message out of my head. So, I decided to get a bit personal in this post and discuss my experience with being a “plus size” or “curvy” woman. It’s a little scary to be this honest, but I want to be open about my struggle with my body image and my journey to begin to accept who I am.
Even when I was younger, I struggled with my weight. It was tough being one of the “bigger” girls in my class, but I had a lot of great friends and my amazing family to keep me encouraged. Looking back, I let my size define some of my decisions – I let the insecurities of what I looked like define how I acted. Not anymore…
My journey to accept myself probably began when I started this little blog of mine about 2 years ago. This blog has challenged me to ask the deep questions – who am I? what are my values? what do I love? what do I hate? Yeah, sure, I am a ND grad and tech consultant, but what makes me – me? By exploring these questions, I have been able to see all of these other aspects of my life that are so full – I love musical theater, I have great family and friends, I love to cook, I love to continue to learn and be challenged. The more I started to develop this idea of who I am, the more I realized how unique I am. There are still plenty of things that I want to work on – I’m still pretty shy in new situations, I procrastinate too much, I over-analyze situations, but ultimately…
I love myself – and that includes my body.
Are there days I struggle? Most definitely! There are always those doubts…would XYZ happen if I were skinnier? Would so-and-so person like me better if I weren’t this big? But, I am learning that those doubts would most likely still be there if I was a couple pounds lighter.
Do I want to lose weight? ABSO-FRICKIN-LUTELY! But, I don’t think losing weight is going to make me happy. I want to lose weight because I want to lower my cholesterol and reduce my risk for other diseases and conditions that really scare me. And I’d be lying if I said that there wasn’t a bit of vanity involved. The plus size clothing market has come leaps in bounds in the past few years. There are so many amazing companies providing curvy women with trendy clothes, but there are still items I want that I cannot get my hands on because of my size. (It’s not the biggest incentive, but it helps to keep me motivated).
Body positivity is something that I hope to promote here on Something Gold, Something Blue. I am a firm believer in being beautiful on the inside translates to the outside – y’all confidence is the best accessory (and shouldn’t we really consider it a staple?) I believe that you can look gorgeous at any size – every shape and size needs their own strategy for finding what they feel they look best in. My go to outfits have to have a defined waist to emphasize mine. Maybe you want to play up your killer legs or those sexy shoulders? Find what works for you and stick with it!
At the end of the day, my hope is to inspire anyone who stumbles upon my little corner of the Internet to feel empowered and know that they are AMAZING and BEAUTIFUL!! Really, you are AWESOME! Embrace who you are and go be that gorgeous, intelligent and awe-inspiring woman that I know you are! 😀
“You are allowed to be both a masterpiece and a work in progress simultaneously” – Levo League Instagram Post
Photography by Lydia Hudgens
P.S. I’m linking up with the Trend Spin Link-Up.